Imagine

Imagine if we all worked to be the best at what we do, what we naturally excel in, or what we all hope to be best at always always with the present and future of the world in mind...the possibilities for great, positive change seem to have no limit..right? but just like communism, we've learned in theory: of course. In practice? Not a chance. Many people want what is best for this world, but many of these people have little immediate power, money, or avenues to apply this power and money that wait - they also lack. Those with the power, many of them, get caught in something that I can't explain. A mess of details, everyday distractions, and more commonly, the shit side of what makes us human. I don't know how to be optimistic in America today. I don't know how to be the best citizen I can be. What does it mean to be patriotic, proud, and active? What can I do? Tell me. I don't like receiving e-mails from you 'John Kerry' or getting calls from 800- numbers encouraging me to vote for the addition of De Anza classrooms. I don't know. I really don't know how I can be a part of what I want to see change in this world. I feel like, as an individual, I can only choose a handful, if that, of world/local issues to fight for, work to change, and be a part of. And so, what do I choose? How much of myself do I sacrifice for this issue? for the potential of maybe some change? but also maybe A LOT of change? Maybe, should I just first worry about myself. Make self-oriented decisions and seek personal contentment. Maybe... maybe...I just don't know. I could use a poker analogy here (Jordan helped me with that) or I could really try to help you see it...maybe some anecdotes? I don't know. I think you get it, right? Get that I have no idea what I want to do with my life, my individualism, with my hands, mind, and energy.